To think that it's nearly the end of a decade got me chills.
2019 was one of the best years of my life. Been living in this world for the past 22 years, and I can totally say that 2019 was a great year.
I met my current boyfriend last year, but our relationship became official earlier this year. Well... what to say about him? He is great. He listens. He understands my intention and trying not to get annoyed whenever he hears my pointless day to day drama. He's very charming. He cares a lot. He might look cold from the outside, but inside, he's totally an open fire. I am the happiest whenever he's around. In other words; he is not always around because we live 500 kilometers away. It is hard for me. We got chance to meet once a month, and it was always not enough. I wish that we will soon living in the same city because personally the LDR thing is not for me. I didn't know why I said yes to him in the first place; I guess I just knew it. I knew that I will completely fall for him, and not giving a single care about the distance between us.
It is also nearly the end of my uni life. Yes, it's been 4 years since I became a communication student. I am (finally) going to have my thesis defense next week, which is kinda terrifying. The thoughts about what's going on after the defense makes me scared the most. Of course I have my own plans; going to Jakarta, get a job, living in a nice flat would be great, hopefully saving money and help my parents funding my little sister's tuition.
But I am also going to another phase in life. I am going to move to another city, adjusting with the new environment, starting it all over again. My parents will not support me financially, I have to stand on my own. Suddenly the thoughts about all of them are scary as heck.
I'm always open to changes and challenges. Challenge excites me. Change makes me thrilled. And now they're right there, just a couple steps in front of me, patiently waiting for me to catch them.
To wrap this up, I would say that I am grateful for my 2019.
I got a chance to achieve my dreams, to finally went to Europe. I got a chance to feel loved. I got a chance to know myself better as a person. I got to know my feelings towards my family; in a bad and in a good way. I got a chance to finish my thesis. And I got a chance to be happy, over the smallest and simplest things that happened this year.
I will update you about my Europe trip later after I finish my thesis defense, and I will also share my experience in an international students conference called ISWI this year.
Here's to a whole new decade, new dreams and ambitions, also a new great things to achieve!
